Song of Freedom : My Journey from the Abyss

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Later I remembered being taken from my home to that doctor's office. A woman I called Hilga took my clothes off and gave me a brown sack dress. Her voice was rough with a strong German accent. I was a bad girl, she said, and I was going to be punished, which was something that always happened, because you never know what you were being punished for. I was taken down a set of steps; a dark door opened, and I was put in a vault. It was completely dark in there. I remember crawling around and smelling something really awful. I crawled to the end of this little, tiny chamber that I was locked in and found a pile of dead cats. I was terrified. I didn't know why I was there; I didn't know what was happening to me. It was dark, moist and filthy; it smelled bad. I didn't even have my clothes, and I wanted my mommy and I wanted to go home. I remembered wanting to go home more than anything on Earth, and I was shaking and crying.

Then I lost time, and the next thing I remembered was that I didn't think I could take it anymore and I wanted to die. I didn't want to be in that awful room another minute, so I left my body and went to a beautiful place. I was in a tree, looking down on this little girl's figure, lying in the tree; I knew I had died, and I was really glad that I had died. I had no intentions of going back. Just then, an angel of light appeared and said I had to live, because I had something very important to do. He told me I had to go back into my body, that I had agreed to live. He said that once I got back in my body, I should crawl away from the dead cats to the other end of the room and run my finger along the base of the wall, where I would find a crack. I was to run my finger back and forth across that crack, until the door opened, because if there's a crack, the door will eventually open. And that's really true. That's what this is all about: finding that crack and waiting for the door to open.

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